Man…it’s been a while. Feels good to be back in the game though. :)

Thought I’d give an update as to how things were going.

30-Day Trial #4

I didn’t continue the trial too long after I started it. Around that time I was starting to think that these 30-day trials were a way for me to avoid doing stuff I was afraid of. There were some big changes I wanted to make (location) and I thought that the 30-day trials were just me stalling. After taking some time off I can see that that did have some truth to it, but I still want to keep doing visualization.

Ebay Reselling

While I was doing my other trials, I was always questioning whether I should be working on visualization, reading, etc. when there are much bigger issues to deal with. I wanted to move out, so shouldn’t I be doing stuff to make enough money to support myself after moving out? I thought so, so I did.

Ideally I wanted my sole income to be made online. I had made money online before, but I had never made a full income before. Usually when I hear about making money online Ebay comes up, so I thought I’d give it a try. I bought this book (here’s a pretty accurate review of it), bought some stuff off slickdeals.net and resold them on Ebay. I had sold a lot of stuff on Craigslist before, (everything in my apartment) so I had a pretty good idea on what to do. The intention was to get my feet wet with selling and shipping, so I wasn’t too concerned about profit. I think people who really put forth serious effort reselling on Ebay would laugh at my super beginner strategy.

One thing I like about Ebay is that it’s so easy. I guess over the years they’ve done a lot to the site to make sure everything runs as smoothly as possible. Same thing goes for Craigslist.

Purpose

Though I do like Ebay and Craigslist, the idea of reselling makes me feel like I’m going backwards. The truth is that the world doesn’t need another Ebay reseller and it felt pretty empty to me anyway. At the core, I’m just manipulating numbers for my own benefit. Writing on this blog is a lot more fun and fulfilling. It’s made me realize that making $1 the way you really want to is better than making $1000 in a way you feel you have to “settle” for. However, neither option is a win-win.

Lately I’ve really been doing some serious thought about purpose. There’s so much talk about purpose within the self help field, but up until now I really didn’t pay it too much attention other than reading a book on it. It’s a pretty big awareness raiser when you realize that even if you haven’t consciously chosen a purpose you still have one.

Clearly the purpose of me reselling was just to make some profit, BUT this is what I don’t want to see anymore of. There’s tons of stuff out there doing more harm than good and wasting people’s time. The sole reason much of that stuff sticks around is because it generates money. So many things are being motivated by fear or lack, and I don’t want to add to that.

So what do I want? I have a general idea and it is written down, but after listening to Frank Kern’s Core Influence and reading some articles on Steve Pavlina’s blog (How to Visualize your New Reality and How to Order) and reading other self-help sources, I’m pretty sure I haven’t been nearly as detailed as I should be in describing exactly what I want.

In a perfect world:

- What would your thoughts be when you went to sleep?
- How exactly would you be earning money?
- What would your friends be like?
- What would you have for dinner?

Those are some questions from Core Influence (probably somewhere before that too) and they are questions I hadn’t thought of. Looks like I got some work to do. :)

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